Below are the 14 most recent journal entries recorded in mygreenhanky's LiveJournal:

Saturday, November 4th, 2006
10:18 pm	New Haircut... New Life? I just had my haircut and that gay dude just commented how thin my hair is.. Excuse me... it's stress... Some of my batchmates are in Ketkai right now and i should be there! he's here! he's here! but then he'd be going back real sooooon... and hell, i didn't see him!! i've realized...this is self-inflicted pain and suffering, guys... to be what you do... im watching videos in youtube.com and guess what..my friend is actually practicing video piracy! i may be a klepto of candies in Cugay Store but ... it's sad because it's anime! someday when i become a manager, i'll send off my animation works exclusively to get rid off the risk of piracy!Come on, Captain JacK Sparrow is hot but VIDEO PIRACY??? i miss Keppu... some random number texted me "pinaghihintay kita...hehee...humanap ka na kaya ng iba." i thought it was him. well, i have no confirmation though. but the message... maybe i should give up. there was never a hope anyway. hahaay... and to top off my horrible day, i hate this keyboard! it's so hard!waaahh!!! gotta go ... im going to ketkai, my ate's going back to ozamis tomorrow.. hahaayy... I miss school.yet im sure it's coming soon. but keppu? Shit. Im so desperate. Current Mood: blah Current Music: Real Ninjas... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 31st, 2006
10:55 pm	i may not look like it... but im really hopeless. i read biya-chan's entries, and i guess, i can understand. i mean, why not me? why can't he/they see how i feel? in the first place, does he know that i exist? every year i should see even a 5-minute glimpse of him, personally, to make my year and carry that image for inspiration. I get jealous with the others when they have their own kilig moments (i mean, recently) and when i look to my own, im so boring! huhuu.. i can't get this feeling. i accept everything that i have, and i can stop myself easily from temptations. but why am i asking this? this is so stupid. Love problems are so usual, the mundane conversation. i don't want to talk about it either. but i am! im indeed hopeless. it's sembreak. yeah. i should see him! he's buff! hahaa... spite of his history of lankiness (?) and geeky persona... ate beatriz said, or was that farina-san?, that it seemed without Maskara the vacation had gone TOO quickly...it could be the lack of movement or excitement. well, i think that's it. and to think he was the reason why i joined the club! actually, i had no plans for the stage. but he gave the chance to feel the thrill when you stand on the stage or platform, and you couldn't help but let yourself out.. if you can read this, thank you. im so bored, that's it. but i have so much to do. so much to do that i don't know where to start or even how to start it. if this petty problem of not seeing him does not cease, don't be surprised i'd suddenly have a breakdown. yup, i'm that desperate. Current Mood: and tired.. Current Music: suteki da ne? - isn't beautiful? (Comment on this)
4:36 pm	i don't know how... from the scorching heat (yes, i have sacrificed my skin) and the rough dust passing me, i have sought refuge...in this cramped internet cafe... hmm... first of all, it's been a while since i've written, and yes, i need help. how do you put those pretty icons and background pictures? i don't want to work on too much on friendster anymore. i mean, it's sooo... stereotyped? no, wrong word. wait, i can't express it. i just don't like it anymore. so anyone? may you help me update my livejournal? ehe, i know it's a great help, but i'd greatly appreciate it. :) Thanks. :) (Comment on this)
Friday, June 2nd, 2006
2:00 am	They're back again i don't know but im kind of sad to realize again how imperfect i am. oh come on, spare me the snorts and all those 'panipat' stuff. let me live as a typical teenager. let me lament about myself. let me storm off like huricane Katrina. Let me be jealous in everything i see. you see, it's fun. call me sadistic but i wonder a lot how this would end anyway. im going to be third year soon, oh shit, nah...im already a junior! dagnabit! and i jsut thought, how i wasted my boring highschool years...wala gimmick or memories to prove, walang lovelife o mga ganun bah. sabi nila ganyan talaga highschool... kaso lang, i don't have that!! did i spend my years right? will i? i have two terms left. well, i hope so. Damn it, if we graduate and they decided to put airconditioners in the classrooms, i'll burn my records and go spend a year with aircon...mwhahaha... haayy... i guess im just afraid...afraid of whatever's going happen to me... not afraid siguro, noh? it's too well used. Excited. Current Mood: literally ... it's 2:30am Current Music: "Hatsukoi (First Love)" piano (Comment on this)
Friday, May 26th, 2006
11:30 pm	Wait... hirit. i wanna express that... yah. I AM AN INSOMNIAC, DAMN IT. gotta review for math and geom... what a miracle, dang. Thank God, Ken2x got me to do it. Thanks a million! Current Mood: sick Current Music: ... (Comment on this)
11:16 pm	Im awake and ... not happy to be well, i suppose this friendster will make people feel better. i mean, we see people, we converse them through this cyberworld and when we meet them personal...like in school...maybe it's just me but we treat each other like we don't know each other... it's just me, i guess... i wanna see him, yes, that Keppu guy. Why not? my friends saw him more than once this summer (that also means Kenken..dang!) and moi? not once. nadaah... some may think to get another guy to drool over with, that seems to have hope on you. wait, since when did i hope on guys? haha. Patience is a virtue. That guy is hard to forget... considering the points the eyeglasses and the smarts are his trademarks and i get to see them everywhere. Patience is a virtue. im not a patient person, heck, i do not have patience to start with. But because of Mr. Kevin Paul Achas (correct?) Reblora... there are some things love can really do you some good, anyhow. Current Mood: but sleepy? Current Music: Japanese Music (Sakura no so - Sakura Garden) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006
4:36 am	great... did not sleep yet.. *yawn* useless entry... using this speedy card again... *yawn* sayo...na...raaaahh.... Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: SILENCE.... (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 8th, 2006
5:08 pm	damn it god i hate poverty i just turned into a relentless devil she was just a girl asking for my food that oh shit. im so pissed off im so terrible damn it! damn,,, im so bad. evil. terrible. (Comment on this)
Friday, March 24th, 2006
1:45 am	i'd rather die than .... dagnabit. Current Mood: damn it all Current Music: Linkin Park (brings out memories) (Comment on this)
Friday, March 10th, 2006
3:34 am	Nearing school year end... Yeah... it's then time of year where every student rejoices that no school at last and freedom we will attain for two months!! weeee!!! but then... not all students... for again i will be lonesome in this house...collecting fat in my body and dust on my skin... it's not that i really love school (...) maybe that i need somethign to do this summer unlike last year. Ya know, i'm not rich... ... haay... Now this incoming elections later this morning (it's 3:47am on my cell) and my stomach is churning. My good friends Celyn and Farina are surely gonna win. I don't have the PR, or the confidence, the 'smile', the talent. damn it! it makes me feel so bad...oh damn... i wasted my time on the campaigning, knowing i'm not gonna win, though my party was really fun (REALLY... ^_^ CHABIPERNKS!!!) wELL, i still have to do my english papers and my computer... haay... still have to study for the incoming exams, especially math and geom (comprehensive!).. and our english play... love you guys Current Mood: and i mean REALLY.. Current Music: beethoven's fur elise (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
12:27 am	hello everyone! hahhehehe...tehheee... i just feel like writing...even though...i have nothing to write..gihehehe... actually im bored...im researching some anime pictures......and ...im still bored...yahahhahaaaa.......uh...you see...i don't see anything...hahahahahahahaaaa......im with my sister now..... and .... she's bored...ehehe...we're all bored here...soon we'll become blackboards, waiting for chalk to write on us....tell us to do something...heheheheheee.... nothing... nothing.... i see no chalk around... it's sooooo quiet here.... maybe i'll put some music on......................if you like hearing japanese music....hmmmmmmmmmmmm.......let me see.....aya ueto, my idol!eheheheheeeee..................... you should know her........you're missing half of your life....or whole of your life...ewhehee....no,,,,not whole.........three-fourths maybe.....it's ssoooooooo nonsense..........and the one who'll read this will lose his/her sense,,, im gonna go now... i gotta go now........ .......im losing you, you're losing me, im losing my mind...you're losing your patience....goodbye.... ,,,,,,,haaay,...... pAttY ^^ Current Mood: bored Current Music: aya ueto "message" (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 28th, 2005
9:23 pm	I really don't know why... Christmas was suppose to make me happy. But now... Haaay.... Current Mood: distressed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
11:43 am	help me fast... i beg for guidance and love... wouldn't anyone be tactful enough to understand? Current Mood: help me Current Music: japanese music (Comment on this)
Monday, March 21st, 2005
2:01 pm	my dearest... i love this guy, he's so perfect... the perfect guy i ever have known...but he is inlove with the perfect girl.... he's here, back in the school where he's been... he's four years older than me, im still a young girl..a young ugly fat pathetic imperfect annoying girl... get the picture? i hope you understand... because of him i knew my existence then, my pathetic self.. i try to find another guy but he doesn't get out of my head... help me, my dearest, help me overcome... Current Mood: yes, ive always been this way Current Music: national anthem (Comment on this)